In my crazy day of tracking down people and meeting with them to try to "figure things out" I walked into this building to meet with a professor. This boy who was walking out much steps in front of me, pushed the handicap button to open the door. I was confused because no one was behind him, and he was not going back in. I did not realize until the door opened in perfect timing as I approached it that he pushed it for me...and I glanced back and he gave a half glance back, and kept walking away. it was weird- but nice.



I think we were the only ones who noticed, but hilarious man. stupid small things that put a smile on your face and allow you push everything aside and just enjoy life at the momment. It was one of those nights. I like friends, I like meeting new people who are real and nice, I like seeing people that I have not seen in forever. I dont like weird shit, so i left it.



when im home
I've been so sleepy and tired of everything and bored lately. I need an adrenaline rush bad. Maybe I'll see what the highest stair I can jump off is again.




I opened up a can of beer, went down to the street and screamed. it was cuz the sox won, I did not watch the game, but I thought the screaming was fun. yeah, riots in the streets of chicago.




so brought my game at dodgeball today and bowling last night. scores:113 and 108 a few gutter balls and a few strikes, thats how i play. come to think of it, my life is like that, im always gutterballs or strikes



"oh by the way, your grandmother passed friday"
Everything seems to come down on me all at once. Nothing went right today, with school, work and life...my grandmother passed friday and my parents nor I found out until today. Somethings in my family are so f'd up. but we pretend everything is okay by not seeing most of them. so is that how i should handle problems? if you cant solve it, ignore it.



I dont know what it is or why, but I am so happy when im with friends. I think Ive missed them so much. It was a total reunion weekend and I loved it. I wish it were like how it was back in those days, dont go away! why did we all go away and ruin it? well i suppose we will grow and diverse from one another, but once you can laugh with someone I think you always will have that connection no matter who, when or where you are- friends are amazing



flippin ebay
so i bought this german dress getup thing from ebay...I thought it would be an authentic drndl dress and i was getting adeal...ah no...but the thing came today and i was so excited to open the box...I took out the dress and it was sersiously made to fit a 10 yr old girl. so i tried it on anyway, just in case i amazingly shrunk but heh no, and it wasnt a pretty site, alll awkward and shit, so now im gunna have to be an ebay seller....why did i buy this thing in the first place? im not really sure....no acutally it was one of the many halloween ideas that i have, hmm okay moving onto plan b.



this calls for some serious seriousness
I have no time for anything, it seriously sucks. like I want a social life and to just hang low, but I have to do all this unexpected school work. Unexpected cuz i thougth this semester would be a breeze, ah i knew i shoulda dropped the 400 level art history course. well well here we go again, in school and not doing good, what happened to me...i used to be so smart? and i really think that i developed add...cuz i just sit there and stair at the book and my mind is like fifty mega lightning years away...



i like to sing, but I cant sing in groups
okay so i started this acapella group thing...it was all random really, one week i put an add in the paper and bam, i got some people who were interested, so we met up a coupla times, and I kinda got freaked cuz everyone has sang before in some sort of choir and I, well I sing in the shower. So I dont know if im going to keep up with this group that i started...and its all really funny that i started it out of all of the people comes...they laughed at me when i said that we should all just go out to broadway st to practice....hmmm yeah i dunno.

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